Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Song : Point Of Grace " You Will Never Walk Alone"
Finally................. its over. I manage to confess my sins and now able to look at god face to face and call him my heavenly father ... to be able to slot right straight into his embrace and know that i will always be safe.
Still i would like to say sorry to a number of ppl...... pls be patient....
1sT) To shuming. My ex-gf of 4 yrs.. I would still like to say sorry for the things and harm i have done to you. I am glad we both are moving on and thanks for helping me lift this barrier so that i can finally see the Lord face to face. And yes . till now i still think you deserve someone better than me and Yes i am not good enuff. But everyday i will await your forgiveness so i can be forgiven by the lord as what is said in the bIble .
2nd) To Valerie. I am sorry that i broke your heart and yes even though now you might not haven forgiven me, and i couldnt pick the courage to call u , but i can tell you that yes i did love you but the reason why i chose shuming is mainly becoz i tot my relationship with her was stronger. And yes you did many things to beat her in many departments and i pray that you will meet someone much better than me. Pls forgive me. Take care and God Bless
3rd)To Esther. i am sorry that i broke your heart last year. It still runs in my blood that i am guilty and that day when i saw you at NYP , i felt really bad coz of some private stuff that couldnt be stated here but yes you still look ever so stunning and i am sorry that i broke your heart when i walked away.
4th) To Angeline. I am sorry that i din cherish you so long ago and yes after so long you still do love me but i have chosen to lead my life to god and i treat brothers as brothers , sisters as sisters and I thank you for everything you have done.
5Th) To Dawn. I am sorry for the things i have done and yes i have chosen to lead my life for
god and i appreciate every single thing you have done and the times we have spend together.
6Th) To Char . Hey girl , i know you still read my blog and i thank you for ur love but its something that i can not accept as i dun think i am ever gd enuff for you. You study in Nus arts and i still haven go Ns... and yes you will constantly be in my tots... but just as a gd sister... Take care and god bless to you too...
I am really sorry for everything and yes this is my list to say sorry to all the girls whose love i can not reciprocrate. and also the wrong doing i have done pls forgive me. I will treat you all as sisters and gd frens even if you guys choose not to...
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posted @ 12:07 AM
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