Saturday, June 18, 2005
WoosH ---- 6am in the morning... Dont ask why i am awake but i simply am. All that has happened during the day on Friday impacted me so much in my life that tonite , falling into sleep is such a terrible and hard thing to do........
Song PLaying : Jars of Clay " Hiding Place "
I practically had a nice day , woke up late due to the smses that beep me to open my tIred eyes. Met up with one of my cell memebers at around 0130 for lunch at Marina Sqaure before meeting Sister Jiaying for Bible Study lessons at 3pm.
Learnt alot during the lesson and it really gives me a good idea on how a missionarian should be like and how knowledgeful i should be before i can embark towards it. Words of wisdoms seems to be able to flow out of her mouth and no wonder as she is a cell group leader... a anointed one .. blessed by God and his angels and wow.... Marvellous even though we had it at Burger King. *sweats*
After bible study , accompanied Zhengwei to get his street Soccer Shoes...... wow... his shoes looks Great alright. Like a knight in his shinning Boot? haha i am crapping now at 6am so just forgive me... rushed off to my house to get the Guitar cause he had to use it for Prayer Meeting Session later at Sister Connie's house which sadly i could not attend becoz of something important i have on that affected most of my life today..................
On the team bus to St Wilfred Stadium... atmosphere was great ever since we won the last match.. but this time, things were much different. I couldnt play coz i was recently discharge for Lung infection and high fever. I knew mentally i was ready but physically i would pull the team down. Our opponents are a seeded team BEDOK CSC... and i was down there to cheer for them.
Sad thing is i see the defence started out badly and we conceded 2 early goals... normally i would be there to coordinate the defence and the coach told me , i should have been on the field.. Then came Kevin , he asked me why din i play , things were sure to make a diff.. and so on and so on... I felt so miserable not being able to stand and fight with my brothers... whenever i see the ball being pumped into our defence... i felt so much urge to go and get it. But i cant simply becoz i am binded by my sickness and to the seats. I cheered and cheered.... but eventually the match settle down.... and the final score ended at 2-0 ...... we werent at the best of our luck , hitting the post twice and also a one on one situationed saved by the opponent keeper.... At the end of the game, i see everyone sweating and coming towards where i was sitting , i just dazed and images of me walking back slots into my view... i miss it.. i cant wait to be back ... i just simply love football...... I have to be back , be stronger , so that my players can rely on me.... be the backbone of the defence.... and maybe bring us to greater heights.... its no easy feat considering that i am just a player... thats why i am gonna push myself... I love challenges but i am sad to be not able to challenge the opponents tonight..
I set my return date at 25th June...... our team's next match.... i will be back.. and this time i would be better than the last time they saw me.... * secret training* hahahah no .. but wat i saw today made me realised that i have to be strong .... my legs are shaking....... not with fear... but with the adrenalin rush of blood in me that i will play SOCCER SOON AGAIN...... and i cant skin the life out of every opponent thats gonna rush into our defence.... I pray ... i pray that i will be healed..........
Tmr morning 9am.... Our cell group is having a court soccer thing andi thinink i can play.... i gonan run and run and run... i love it. dats why i cant sleep..... i tried closing my eyes for 2 hrs but the tot of soccer in a few hours just pumpes it all up again.... its good to be on the court with the ball at my feet to do magical stuff that during my life, i cant do..........
posted @ 5:56 AM
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