Monday, July 25, 2005
Sunday:
Played soccer at hougang with melvin and his friends..... Den Later met up with my childhood frens to go POTBLACK for pool and at night came home to go celebrate my sister birthday... which is on tuesday.
Monday:
After work went to buy gift for my sister...... Then later met up with friends to have coffee at taka coffeebean ... by e time i got home was already 12 plus.
Tuesday:
Went shopping with my mama after work.. lolx bought a lot of clothes but a pity that i din splurge more since i aint e person paying
Wednesday:
Supposedly to go Bible study at YMCA but got off work late. Went to Haru to have my hair cut coz i have been trying to get this specific hairdresser for weeks and she is always packed. Met up with my cousins to go have dinner and coffee after my haircut. Later at aroudn 10pm headed to Thompson Medical hospital to visit my cousin who just gave birth. As usual, by e time i got home was already.. haha 12 plus again!!!!
Thursday:
Met up with my friend for dinner at Tiong Bahru market after my work.
Then went to Tiong Bahur to do some Window Shopping.
Headed home and packed my room before watching THE O.C and One Tree Hill
Friday:
After work gathered with Mel , Jane and Ko for dinner and coffee.. hahah we chatted and had fun from like 6.30 till like 12midnight .. hahah ended our day at Forum Coffeebean.......
Saturday:
Finally a day of rest. Woke up later at round 12, continue to pack and clean my room. Den after that at around evening went to church for service before heading home.
Had to prepare soNgsheet for cell tmr
Sunday:
Woke up for breakfast with folks. Met up with cell ppl at around 10 plus to go Shujun's house for cell which ended around 2pm. Later went for dinner with a couple of cell members and we discuss and went to play some pool.
Met up with my cousins at orchard for some food and walking before heading to my grandma's hosue for dinner at night..........
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Song : Lonely No More " Rob Thomas"Today after my grandma's house , i went to my nearby hawker with my dad for supper... and guess who i saw? my ex-gf valerie whom i did love a lot and yet let her down. Dumped her for reasons that is so unforgivable. Dumped her becoz i tot i had a better future with another girl.
And i saw her at my hawker..... i din dare look her in e eye. I have avoided her ever since i did e evil stuff. She still hasnt forgiven me.
After last night i posted abt me and trials of love, why did God make me meet up with her again? Her radiant smile is still on her face. Even though i dun love her anymore, i still feel the guilt and remorse of e thinsg i have done to her
Still remember the past, i was with shuming and yet i was going out with valerie.... haiz... but at that time shuming was overseas and valerie was e one that accompanied me all e time. I really enjoyed e company and yah love blossomed. She is beauty and funny and nice and she loves me so darn much. Everyday i just cant stop looking at her in e eye but when e day shuming came back, i had to make a decision.
She cried for days as she tell me over e phone. My heart melts but yet i still cant think of a gd future between me and her
I was thinking abt e past sins i have done last night and God let me meet her today. After so long , i finally saw her eye to eye. I shunned away.. choosing to run away... i pretended that i din see her but its pretty obvious we made eye contact.
Everyone have their barrier they have to overcome before they can move another level up towards God... and its pretty obvious that mine is guilt and lust that is hindering me. I am trying my best to cut all contacts with girls that like me or i may like. I treat all girls as Sisters and as a family.
Sad to say.................. Gdnite
posted @ 12:09 AM
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